Friday, December 17, 2010
I love the art of biting my tongue
I'm tired of trying to guess what was wrong
Both agreed on where we should go
But not how to get there
We tried and tried to loosen the knots
Thinking once we're untangled we'll be better off
But it's these failures and faults that hold us together
Better or worse
But what else can we do?
And better or worse
I am tethered to you
If it's not either of us
Tell me who are we fooling?
This beautiful tangle that's bruising us blue
It's a beautiful knot that we just can't undo
Together we're one but apart tell me
Who are we fooling?
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
When I was younger, I worked for a year as a driver for a company in southern California. I delivered parts from our company to other companies in the area. This involved relying on maps and addresses, as I was often driving through unfamiliar territory.
Invariably I would be driving down a street at the speed limit of thirty-five or forty miles per hour, trying to spot the address on the side of a building or street curb. If I slowed down to see better, the traffic behind me would slow down and I would be the object of blaring horns. I always went as slow as I dared, but occasionally I would realize, after looking back and forth from one side of the street to the other, that I had actually passed my destination.When that happened I had to quickly glance in my rearview mirror and try to spot the building.
I have come to the conclusion that this is often the only way we can correctly perceive some aspects of God’s will—in the rearview mirror of life.
I was thinking about this recently when we invited some Christian friends over for dinner. As we finished dinner we began talking about our backgrounds, and some of the traumatic and difficult experiences we had encountered in life.
As we shared experiences we had lived through twenty and thirty years ago, and how hard and unwanted they had been at the time, we began to realize how significantly these experiences had impacted our lives in a positive way.What we couldn’t begin to see at the time was our immaturity, wrong ideas about God and life, and attitudes that desperately needed to be changed. At the time the experiences seemed overwhelming and designed to destroy us. There was no way, we realized years later, that we could have expected to understand what God was doing through these events.
But in retrospect it made sense to us. Though none of us would want to repeat those moments again, we all agreed that they had been necessary for our growth. The pain and difficulty had transformed us in a way nothing else could. But only from the rearview mirror of life could we see that. The will of God had involved pain, but not for pain’s sake. There was a loving, caring, and wise purpose behind it all.
Paul Tournier wrote, “God leads us step by step, from event to event. Only afterwards, as we look back over the way we have come and reconsider certain important moments in our lives in the light of all that has followed them, or when we survey the whole progress of our lives, do we experience the feeling of having been led without knowing it, the feeling that God has mysteriously guided us."
(An excerpt from the book "When Faith and Decisions Collide" by Daniel Schaeffer)
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble. Likewise, two people lying close together can keep each other warm. But how can one be warm alone? A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.
Friday, September 10, 2010
We bounce back. We persevere. We fight this good fight of unbelief.
For the times I've been busy, for the times I chose what I want, the times I've brought judgment to others, the times I thought I was doing what He wants or being completely ignorant of my 'respectable sins', those are the moments where His grace is abound.
Forgiveness and second chances are sweet.
My song will only be for the one who accompanies me as the tears flow in.
The light heart that comes with entrusting God with everything is my reward. Thank you for an open heaven tonight. Indeed, you know every prayer of our silent hearts. May we be more and more desperate of you, Father.
Thank you for breaking me.
Thank you, most of all, for dying on the cross for me.
I pray this with a wounded and filthy heart.
And we pray in Jesus' holy name, amen.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
He sees every situation in which he finds himself as the means of obtaining a greater knowledge of Jesus Christ, and he has an attitude of unrestrained abandon and total surrender about him. The Holy Spirit is determined that we will have the realization of Jesus Christ in every area of our lives, and He will bring us back to the same point over and over again until we do.
(check full post here.)
Not trying to be too spiritual here but ok, let's simply think of it this way. If you found yourself stuck at the same situation you're trying to get out of over and over again for the past, what, idk, few months, years? then point is, most probably, a lesson is being taught here. And one doesn't need to be a rocket scientist to come to that point.
Guts, patience, the right perspective. I need that to move beyond feelings. Sprinkled with utmost confidence that life was made both hard and wonderful for everyone. Yea? YEA.
Monday, July 05, 2010
“But then I will win her back once again.
I will lead her into the desert
and speak tenderly to her there.
I will return her vineyards to her
and transform the Valley of Trouble into a gateway of hope.
She will give herself to me there,
as she did long ago when she was young,
when I freed her from her captivity in Egypt.
When that day comes,” says the Lord,
“you will call me ‘my husband’
instead of ‘my master.’
O Israel, I will wipe the many names of Baal from your lips,
and you will never mention them again.
On that day I will make a covenant
with all the wild animals and the birds of the sky
and the animals that scurry along the ground
so they will not harm you.
I will remove all weapons of war from the land,
all swords and bows,
so you can live unafraid
in peace and safety.
I will make you my wife forever,
showing you righteousness and justice,
unfailing love and compassion.
I will be faithful to you and make you mine,
and you will finally know me as the Lord."
When I prayed for peace and inexhaustible love, I was pointed out the story of Hosea. It's amazing how God used this man to save Israel. God told him to marry a prostitute - and that's got to be something. An odd situation to be in but God used his life to illustrate His love for the Israelites, that even if they chose to worship other gods, He remained faithful. Indeed, we have somehow been an 'Israelite' for a while. We get distracted by other things that keeps us on on our toes, that takes our eyes away from him. But the beauty of God's love is it invites us and sustains us.
My faithfulness is required. :)